The Messy Pieces Of A Pastor And Author

I’m not perfect. I’ve made plenty of mistakes. I’m pretty sure I’m my own worst enemy. This is me being real, honest and transparent about who I am in light of all the incredible things God is currently doing in my life. I think more pastors and authors should do the same.

It’s easy to look at someone through the window of their tweets, photos and blog posts only to think, “Man, they’ve got it all together” when in fact they don’t. That’s the weird thing about social media…people see the highlight reel of someone’s life without the nitty-gritty reality of the behind-the-scenes.

I’m human, just like you and the other 7 billion people in this world. I’m good at a lot of things, but I also have a ton of aspects in my life I’m still working on. For instance…

-I have a very hard time letting people into my life.

-I’m my own worst enemy when it comes to criticism.

-I’m extremely insecure when it comes to my looks.

-I constantly compare myself to other pastors and authors.

-I worry about whether or not I’m going to be a good dad.

-I sometimes let fear get in the way of my marriage.

-I have a hard time saying “no” to people.

-I struggle learning how to turn off work-mode.

I’m not perfect. Nobody is. Very few people like to admit that. I share my struggles with you because I’m a pastor who seeks to do life alongside you, rather than simply preaching to you. It’s what Jesus did.

It’s only through the grace and renewal of Jesus that I will find transformation in these areas of my life. I’m slowly learning that transparency is the greatest leadership tool anyone could ever harness. but that this statement is so contrary to what the world tells us.

For so much of my life I’ve tried to fabricate an image of “I’ve got it all together” because I was taught that’s what you’re supposed to do. Well, forget that crap. I’m done trying to portray an image of something I’m not. I’m Jarrid Wilson—lover of Jesus, husband, soon to be father, dreamer and wannabe world-changer. I’m not perfect, but I serve a Savior who is.

Here’s to shaking off the facade and letting people in to see the messy parts of my life. Will you join me? It will be one of the greatest things you’ll ever do.

-Jarrid Wilson


What are some of the messy pieces of your life? Leave a comment below.

Published by Jarrid Wilson

Husband, Father, Pastor at Harvest Christian Fellowship & Author of a few books.

38 comments on “The Messy Pieces Of A Pastor And Author”

  1. I am a far from perfect housewife. I’m very scatter brained and I have a hard time keeping a clean house which really bothers my husband. I get very defensive when I’m called out on my messiness yet I know it’s something I need to improve on. But God gave me a creative mind and it doesn’t work in the neat and tidy ways that a lot of peoples do. I struggle with trying to make my husband happy and trying to help him understand they way my brain works. I’m glad to have found you and your post. They seem to express how I feel about so many things.

  2. Awesome post..that’s one of the reasons I chose my church home. The pastors there are transparent and it’s so helpful.

  3. Thanks for putting yourself out there. Iys never easy. Nothing to do but keep in the direction God has put you on and don’t let “life” sidetrack you.

    Looking forward to seeing all your parenting stumbles, I mean, adventures.

  4. Great post Jarrid. Enjoyed reading it. And I’m all in! Thank you for being honest, transparent and true.

    1. Kay, I totally understand that. I struggle with it myself. I know that God forgives all, but at the same time I have a hard time believing that I am worthy of or deserve his forgiveness. Still waiting for that one to get washed away. The fact that I still struggle with it makes me thing I’m doing something wrong.

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